The Last Supper

We just had the last supper. which i cannot believe just happened. when did we get so old. all day i was thinking about how the last supper is something that the seniors do and it has always seemed so far away. but it actually just happened. my time capsule had some really good pictures from freshman year. i forgot about this but i wrote joe a letter, we were some strange kids. but we both wrote stuff to each other in our time capsules and they both said something along the lines of "i love you man" . cute. right now im listening to "home" over and over again. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OY-LuLcRtqg&feature=related . tatum and ben sang it and it was so good.joe summers played guitar and andrew played some trombone. tk and i were sitting next to each other and i think we kinda both got hit at the same time that this was almost over. holy shit. before tonight, i was mostly just excited and surprised that we are about to graduate. i still am both of those things. but tonight i started for the first time thinking forward to next year, i mean really thinking about next year. whenever people have asked me what im doing next year and i explain venezuela a common reaction has been like oh wow that's really cool, that's really brave of you, all by yourself? and i've replied with oh ha it'll be fun, an adventure, im really looking forward to it. which are all true. but tonight it hit me that really, i am going to be alone. in a city of a few hundred thousand i will be one of maybe three white people, the only one who doesnt speak spanish fluently, and literally two thousand miles away from the people i love. but it's not only me that will be alone. everyone is going their separate ways, and very soon. and that's actually really scary. i havent really realized how much i depend on and care about all my friends. but when i get past the fear and kind of come to terms with the fact that i'm graduating, im so excited for christmas break. not that i want to rush through this summer or the fall in venezuela, but i know that coming home for christmas will be amazing. the christmas eve eve dinner party? i already know that it will be a night to be remembered. we'll all still be great friends and will have had great, different, and exciting times in that 4 months or so that we're apart. this is random but i just realized that tonight i played the cdh rouser for the last time. dang. i wonder how many times ive played it. a lot. a lot a lot. but now it's done. it's weird that im getting strangely sentimental about band..but i am. i think the rouser is just kind of a song that encompasses everything about cdh. it's usually accompanied by sports, but not always. for me, i obviously closely associate band with the rouser. so with band comes memories of some of my best friends, the band trips, the laughs with tyler teddy and andrew. mari. having a best friend. at least with leaving for venezuela it wont be hard being a long ways from her. cuz this past year i already have been. alrighty well i want to go to bed. that probably wont happen quite yet but it's worth a shot. tonight was amazing. from nick siever saying fuck like 30 times during his south park impression to sarah jayne and juliet singing to tatum and ben!! singing home to alec davy and peter doughty just being so funny i dont even know how to describe what they did it was such a good night. it's one that i wont ever forget. we were one as a class, supportive of everyone and collectively realizing that we are about to graduate from high school. oh man. goodnight.