The Last Supper

We just had the last supper. which i cannot believe just happened. when did we get so old. all day i was thinking about how the last supper is something that the seniors do and it has always seemed so far away. but it actually just happened. my time capsule had some really good pictures from freshman year. i forgot about this but i wrote joe a letter, we were some strange kids. but we both wrote stuff to each other in our time capsules and they both said something along the lines of "i love you man" . cute. right now im listening to "home" over and over again. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OY-LuLcRtqg&feature=related . tatum and ben sang it and it was so good.joe summers played guitar and andrew played some trombone. tk and i were sitting next to each other and i think we kinda both got hit at the same time that this was almost over. holy shit. before tonight, i was mostly just excited and surprised that we are about to graduate. i still am both of those things. but tonight i started for the first time thinking forward to next year, i mean really thinking about next year. whenever people have asked me what im doing next year and i explain venezuela a common reaction has been like oh wow that's really cool, that's really brave of you, all by yourself? and i've replied with oh ha it'll be fun, an adventure, im really looking forward to it. which are all true. but tonight it hit me that really, i am going to be alone. in a city of a few hundred thousand i will be one of maybe three white people, the only one who doesnt speak spanish fluently, and literally two thousand miles away from the people i love. but it's not only me that will be alone. everyone is going their separate ways, and very soon. and that's actually really scary. i havent really realized how much i depend on and care about all my friends. but when i get past the fear and kind of come to terms with the fact that i'm graduating, im so excited for christmas break. not that i want to rush through this summer or the fall in venezuela, but i know that coming home for christmas will be amazing. the christmas eve eve dinner party? i already know that it will be a night to be remembered. we'll all still be great friends and will have had great, different, and exciting times in that 4 months or so that we're apart. this is random but i just realized that tonight i played the cdh rouser for the last time. dang. i wonder how many times ive played it. a lot. a lot a lot. but now it's done. it's weird that im getting strangely sentimental about band..but i am. i think the rouser is just kind of a song that encompasses everything about cdh. it's usually accompanied by sports, but not always. for me, i obviously closely associate band with the rouser. so with band comes memories of some of my best friends, the band trips, the laughs with tyler teddy and andrew. mari. having a best friend. at least with leaving for venezuela it wont be hard being a long ways from her. cuz this past year i already have been. alrighty well i want to go to bed. that probably wont happen quite yet but it's worth a shot. tonight was amazing. from nick siever saying fuck like 30 times during his south park impression to sarah jayne and juliet singing to tatum and ben!! singing home to alec davy and peter doughty just being so funny i dont even know how to describe what they did it was such a good night. it's one that i wont ever forget. we were one as a class, supportive of everyone and collectively realizing that we are about to graduate from high school. oh man. goodnight.

Getting Started

So I should be writing my senior speech right now. But instead I'm googling stuff about Venezuela and looking at pictures of the national parks and stuff there. That got me thinking about next year obviously and that reminded me of a comment Ben Liska made about how I should keep a blog or write a blog or whatever the terminology is for it, while I'm there. And a bunch of people liked his comment. (fbook) so now I'm a little early but that's ok. I can't decide if I should be capitalizing letters, using correct punctuation, etc on this. I guess the point of a blog is that you can do whatever you want with it. Hm. We'll see. It'll probably change every time I write. Which probably won't be too often at least for now since I'm still seated safely in a comfy chair in my living room. I am excited for this upcoming year though. Today is Mother's Day and my dad mentioned something about how when he took a year off and lived in colorado he made it a point to be home by Mother's Day. So I'm thinkin that's what I'll do next year. Be home by May 13th? I think it was the 13th. That sounds good. I can stay until my birthday and then come home. So a year from now I'll still be in Venezuela, getting ready to leave. Hopefully really good at spanish. having made a bunch of friends. learned a lot. taught some people english and helped people. traveled to brazil. traveled lots of places. done that traveling by myself and know that I can be independent. see some cool stuff. not hate bugs quite so much. get tan? let's be honest i probably wont be tan but i can dream. well this was an interesting first blog post. i kinda like it though. maybe i'll get into this. but then again maybe not. until next time.